20. Disafilliated Recruitment Counselor at UNF. Political Science/Criminal Justice/French. Bibliophile. Tree-hugger. Constant Contradictions. Hopeless romantic (with pessimistic influences).Questioning the universe Feedback
I’m different now.
I joined a sorority and I love every second of it. I’m actually pretty involved and proud of my letters.
I’m a genuinely happy person.
I’ve let go of a lot of anger.
My mom is now my best friend.
I have let go of things that were/are bad for me.
This includes a lot of people I once considered my closest friends.
I’m learning to speak French.
I would like to move to a different country someday.
I’m in love with someone.
But you should also know…
I’m still me.
I still do not understand make up.
I still haven’t gotten the courage to get a tattoo.
I refuse to become the stereotypical sorority girl.
I still have mornings when waking up is a struggle, though I’ve learned to overcome it (helps when you have someone wonderful next to you).
I have yet to forgive my dad for having a new family, especially one I’ve never been a part of.
My brother is still my # 1.
I cannot go a day without you crossing my mind, which sucks because I know you’re not thinking of me.
If you mess things up with her you’re an idiot.
If she messes things up with you, she’s an even bigger idiot.
You deserve all the happiness in the world.
I don’t know when the day will come that I DON’T think about you.
I’m waiting for it.
Part of me is scared for what it means when that day does come.
I forgive you.
But I’m trying really hard.
To forgive you.
To hold onto who I am.
To be a better version of myself.
And to leave the past behind.
La tierra donde naciste no la puedes olvidar, porque tienes raíces y lo que dejas atrás.
I’m tired of feeling like I’m a supporting character; the Manic Pixie Dream Girl in the lives of the many I’ve left in my wake. Heart-broken, depressed, alone and yet…bettter.
So what happens to the Summers? The Clarisse’s? The Holly Golightlys? The stock characters who challenge a man and turn his world upside down and leave him heart-wrenched but infinitely better for the next person who is sure to come and find a man baptized in heart ache only to be ready for something real? What happens to their story? What will happen in mine?