December 2010
29 posts
Day 8- A moment you felt most satisfied with...
Wow, Ummm…hmmm…tough one. Not because I just gloat in a self-satisfied state but I don’t think I could pin point one single moment. Here goes:
Once in maybe…third grade? Well we had read this article from Chicken Soup For the Soul in my gifted class about a man who received this letter and blue ribbon. The point of the letter and ribbon was for the receiver to give it to...
Day 6-30 Interesting facts about yours truly :}
1- I don’t consider myself to be interesting, just…different. :)
2- Not entirely sure what I want to do when I’m older, but I know I want to help people. Currently I’m leaning towards being a prosecution lawyer but there’s so much I’m interested in. :D
3- I’m sad a lot more often than I tell people because I hate letting people bear my burdens.
4- When...
"Let's be naughty and save Santa the trip" ;)
I hope you all get exactly what you want (preferably unwrapped ;D )!!! Merry Christmas!!! <3
Day 5-Thoughts of Ending Your Own Life
Suicide. Wow. It’s a word that even now gives me an uneasy feeling in my chest; a pain in my heart.
I once attended a funeral for someone who took their own life so it’s not something I take lightly. Sure, Suicide is a thought that dangerously slivers it’s way into my mind at times when I’ve hit rock bottom. But attempting? No. I’ve done stupid things but never...
Day 4-View on Religion
I tend to have my own little religion :) I know that’s probably against the entire idea of religion but I choose to believe things as they’re convenient for me I suppose. Religion is supposed to be a comfort for people, so why not make my beliefs a comfort to me?
I believe in the Christian faith but to me, God is not a leader we fear. He’s a merciful, understanding teacher. A...
I Exist.
I do. Or at least…I did. I know I’m just a memory now but that doesn’t mean I’m not still here. Everything you’ve left of me is still here…but…you just pass me by as if I’m nothing. As if I never even existed. How can you do that? How can you completely act as if I’m not there? “Keep walking”. That’s what you did.
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Day 3- My view on Drugs and Alcohol
Drugs are such a controversial topic. When most people think of drugs they immediately conjure up images of dangerous contraband and crazy abusers. But drugs are obviously not all bad. Medication for example is one of the most miraculous things we have. I know I would not be alive if it weren’t for them. But when thinking about illegal drugs…well it depends on the severity of the drug...
Day 2-Where I'd like to be in ten years
Happy.
That’s my answer. I really don’t know where I’d want to be in ten years from now. I mean, I used to have this entire thing planned out from graduation to the age of forty…but if there’s anything I’ve learned is that life is unexpected. There are no guarantees so why strive for a life of improbabilities? Yes, I’d like to have a career, comfort, a...
“Every time someone asks me how I’m doing…I lie.”
Day 1-Current Relationship Status
Am I allowed to plead the fifth??? 0:) Honestly, I have no idea. I mean, I’m single buuuuuuut confused as to my feelings for someone who I know I should probably stay away from (And have been trying to stay away from :P). That’s not working very well since I tend to talk to or see him pretty often. In a perfect world things would be different and maybe actually work with us, but for...
SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears...
FUCK YOU.
For everything you are. For every school show with an empty seat. For every monthly check. Every Christmas. Every other weekend. For everything you aren’t and everything I wished you could have been.
HOW. DARE. YOU.
How dare you come and say half the things you did? Manipulative? Selfish? Are YOU, of all people, really going to have the nerve to call me any of it? Please. Save your breath....
You Could Have Found A Way
I didn’t WANT to hear from you…but in a way I did. I wanted to see if you would make an effort. I wanted to see if you cared. I got my answer a day late, but it showed me what I had known all along. You’re there when it’s convenient. Don’t argue. Don’t protest. And DON’T try to apologize. There’s more to communication than phones and internet....
"Sometimes good-bye is a second chance"
Who knew I’d ever get back to this point. I mean, yes, deep down I always knew. That somehow I’d be led back to you. But not like this. Not to be in the exact same place I was two months ago.
Except now it is a bit different. Because this time…I’m ready. I’m ready to open up again and let myself be vulnerable and maybe…just maybe…something even more.
Air Glow
“Amorphous, optical radiation continuously emitted by a planetary atmosphere.”
See that? Yeah, that’s the effect you have on me, jerk. It’s an ever-changing mix of feelings, but whatever I’m feeling I’ll always be altered by it. By you. How is it you get under my skin? Into my heart? Drive me absolutely crazy? Keep me sane? Push me so far away? Or right back...
Numbers
How can I define the one thing that never has been? The very thing that everyone experiences differently? Something so complex we as humans have so often been baffled because of it?
Feelings.
They can’t be calculated, measured on a scale, and sometimes are even too difficult to describe. Please don’t ask me to say how I feel, I wouldn’t want to hear it from you. If you have...
I Hope You Dance
“I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance Never settle for the path of least resistance Living might mean taking chances But they’re worth taking Lovin’ might be a mistake But it’s worth making Don’t let some hell bent heart Leave you bitter When you come close to selling out Reconsider”
Last year I spent my birthday in an interesting way....
SEVENTEEN :D
AT LAST!!!
I got to spend a great night with some of my closest friends, some of whom stayed until midnight just so they could wish me a happy birthday before anyone <3 Then wake up to my bestest friend (texting) next to me after staying up talking until two in the morning, but she made me Oatmeal Pancakes and was one of the first people to say happy birthday :D Now I have to run a thousand...
Postive
A lot can be said about a person’s character by the way they behave themselves. Whether it be alone, amongst their closest friends, or people they’ve just met. Some are the type to try to get along with everyone, not to please others but themselves. To truly strive to make their evening better and be kind to others. Others show an air of inferiority which quite frankly, I can do...
“We’re hurt more then we appear. The world will never know, we both have...”
– 78Violet “Flattery”
Peace
The only thing I’ve ever really searched for. I found it in the last person I ever thought it would be in. You have this incredible way of balancing with me and clashing with me but in a fluid motion of collaboration.
I want you. I always have. Not that I’ve known you long, but I guess I want…what you represent? Does that make any sense? Probably not, I tend not to when...
